i write habitually as a way to
verbalize my far too complex thoughts which
are always in a web of words, tightly woven in fabric of sentences
that complicate life unnessarily.
this 17 yr old girl was screaming like it was more than in pain. and in her screaming she complain pain, pain and i'm letting go, help me. her mom told that she's pregnant 3 mths already. and believe me there is no signs of big fat stomach attach to her. she look totally normal and she walks in to our emergency. so assuming that it was only the cramps that happen in the duration of pregnancy stages.
while i was taking her blood pressure, she was sweating all over and asking me for help again. i asked her to point the pain, and she pointed to her private area. then i ask if she wants to pee? is there bleeding in pee? you know sometimes it could be URTI or internal bleeding or it's just menstrual cramps because it ever happen before. and releasing urine would most probably decrease the pain. she didn't answer instead screaming in pain again. i couldn't help but screen her and got the bedpan.so i stood beside lifting up her bums wanting to assist her pee. it was amusing at first when i pulled out her pants because i thought it was her pubic hair and slimming and gooing and i shan't explain more. then again, how could it be her pubic hair, i look closer for clearer view it was a baby's crowning!!!!
we pushed her trolley towards P1 ( its some shit where we organise patient to their priority needs, so basically P1 is most important of all.) wait..why the hell am i telling you all this.. moving on, we started putting up Drips, getting ready the suctioning and everything else that comes in between. and here comes the best part every doctors and nurses even professors, help tell, PUSH! PUSH! the baby's head out already. YOU CAN DO IT! A LITTLE BIT MORE. with deep breaths count to 3 her last push ended with a scream and the baby came wingeriling sliding out. it's a boy!! and she didn't even shed a tear you know!! it was like too easy for her. and she's only 17!! one awesome mom.
it was my first time experiencing and that i'm proud to be that little help to a delivery today =) i'm telling you. its weird seeing and scary shit and you'll have the feeling of thightening your private area because you can almost feel as if it was you who is delivering. you care very much less about blood because you are so engrossed to what's happening that you even forget to smell.
on the other hand the baby was healthy no abnormalities seen and a cute one too that has very good features. after seeing the mom and the procedures and the screamings , i mean i myself cannot ever take it when i come menses, i turn ugly. and that's only menstrual what more to this. i thought to myself, no babies. NO can do. NA-UH!! but after much contemplation, seeing the baby seems to me that the only happiest moment for mom who feels statisfaction who feels stronger is god's greater gift, giving birth. that maybe hey, it's not such a bad thing after all.
ok i just realise i type a whole lot of shittt that's coming from me. that's another thing i hate about life, growing up.
(sigh..)
what a day.
