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dido

i write habitually as a way to verbalize my far too complex thoughts which are always in a web of words, tightly woven in fabric of sentences that complicate life unnessarily.

speak my thoughts.
Sunday, May 04, 2008 5/04/2008 07:38:00 AM it was nearly to midnight on thursday when i woke up and realised i was brought to SGH. the boy i love sat in the conner of my bed accompanying me the whole night in the observation room.at that moment dismay took over my emotion and helplessly asking for my mom repeatedly, unconsciously. scars and bruises seen on my left part of body. and i can't barely move my left shoulder. my joints were unproportionate. i could not recall what had happened that very day but i was told that i collide with a truck when it suddenly stop at AYE. i flung off, totally collapse after and munik was drag by my bike to some distance. thank god we are still alive. munik's got scars and terrible stitches on her leg. how could me. i'm really sorry. very. don't worry the scars will go away okay and i still love you so! i will be driving this time don't you worry about riding no more. Nurul and shafiq came by too and thank you people who've seen me too.

maybe i was hallucinating all along because i really could not remember where i'm going, what excatly happen. maybe i wasn't skill enough to avoid this collision. or like bf says i've been a very naughty girl, god shread my skin to let sins of blood flow out and hopefully i'll remorse.

This deprivation of words hits me with a one-two punch I cannot even begin to block. Nights like this should be cursed. But I'll live.. the odd major catastrophe - like getting dumped and dragged through the mud by the man I'd pledged to love until death? Shoot, I could take that perfectly because I am a trooper! So this is peanuts. Haha.. really, I am feeling fine already.