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i write habitually as a way to verbalize my far too complex thoughts which are always in a web of words, tightly woven in fabric of sentences that complicate life unnessarily.

speak my thoughts.
Wednesday, March 05, 2008 3/05/2008 06:09:00 PM i didn't know that this feeling of not getting, brings me to more deeper hesitation, harassment in what i really want do in life.because suddenly when i wake up, i'm already 20.it's not like when i am 7. i can come home to mommy and complain.and the best thing was, even if it was my fault, she will always be on my side. the very next day, she would come down just to get things right with the teacher or another classmate of mine- that i can never be bullied so easily. and i will have this sense of pleasure that i am satisfied for the people who scold me, gets it from my mom. beware if you play with lioness cub, she'll eat u up. heh. typicall. things change, as i grow . of course mommy will always be there for me but for how long can she..it hits me hard, so hard that by at the end of the day, i was too late to rethink anymore, to even plan what am i supposed to do now?.. and the worst part is, i didn't see it coming.

i don't want to work. i really hate to please people, honestly i am not a very patient person. i hate waiting. i'm tired of studying things that i don't like. i hate it when people tell me what to do. in fact i don't want to do things that i don't like. i want to go travelling. i want to shop freedomly, not bargeting my way through. i'll work whenever i think i need to. i want to really catch that sunrise that i've been aftering all this while. i want to wake up at 3noon and sleep at 7 in the morning every single day. i want to take a walk whenever i like. i want to go bitching with my friends, because i miss them too much and i don't even remember what my bestfriend loves to eat.i miss slumber party with bestie. so very much.