speak my thoughts.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008 1/29/2008 11:31:00 AM
I'm just too scared to disappoint. I hate to prove to people that they've been right all along. but what if that's the only right thing left to do? it can't be about what I want anymore, but it's more of propriety issues. think long-term & u can never go wrong. that's about the only mantra I've been sticking with each time the temptation threatens to overwhelm. nobody said it was gonna be easy. but nobody told me that it was gonna be this hard. I missed so many things, far more than I can count, but at the end of the day, I know I'm doing the right thing for u & for me.
I've never ever asked anyone at all about what I should do. infact, I've never really told anyone about what's happening. but ironically, it made me feel more at peace. cos there's no confusion nor conflicting opinions. it made me think on my own.
I guess now it's too late to start appreciating. oh yes I forgot, what's there to appreciate about me anyway.
if I could please everyone, I would.
but what if pleasing everyone means I won't be the one who'll be pleased?
would it be selfish to leave? now would it?
i write habitually as a way to
verbalize my far too complex thoughts which
are always in a web of words, tightly woven in fabric of sentences
that complicate life unnessarily.
