speak my thoughts.
Saturday, June 16, 2007 6/16/2007 12:15:00 AM
You tell me you love me when you don’t even know me at all. That’s scary shit. Did you love me blindly? I guess so it seems. And I wonder how you do it, The cry, the laughters, the lies, the hugs, the kisses, the happiness, the sadness, the love, the hatred. You keep coming back. May I ask
why is this so? And if it’s because you loved me, then you wouldn’t have hurt me at all. U kept insisting and resisting that you would not fail and disappoint me again, and now you’re trying to tell me that you’re sorry and that you need me and you're trying to come back to me again? All we do is fight and say the things that hurt so bad to where we both begin to cry. We get back at each other and that always I wonder why. You think what you’ve done is going to solve us? Going to change me into better? Then I think you’re dumb enough to even believe in yourself. Not knowingly you’re the fool who tried to won my heart by this ridiculous shit? well let me tell u something.It ain’t going to happen because you made me stronger everytime u leave, i wake up.
Grow up. Please.
And now, I'm starting to think I need medicine. Although I know I will get over this failed relationship within two days or less and start dating five different guys at once again, never sleeping at night, I just keep getting more and more stoned.
how i wish things would have happened so differently.
i write habitually as a way to
verbalize my far too complex thoughts which
are always in a web of words, tightly woven in fabric of sentences
that complicate life unnessarily.
